I always kill my words and lyrics before I finish writing them in fear that some one is going to read my words and call me an idiot, judge me or say that I'm wrong. Honestly, I do this over and over again. I write, and then throw away my words. I fear writing… not writing music, but words. Some where along the way some one told me that I wasn't good enough, some "teachers" said negative things about my words one to many times. It has become such a bad experience for me that I now carry a fear of writing… Where did these people get off saying that my writing was "wrong"? I know it was all based on what they were taught, their personal perception of "right" and "wrong", BUT SERIOUSLY, what kind of "teachers" are they if they're stuck in they're confined conservative mind that can't think outside the box? When it comes down to it "right" and "wrong" doesn't exist. They're learned responses, like guilt, creations from the human mind which are now pressed upon us by our societies.

In western societies its illegal/wrong to cut the clitoris off of women, yet in other societies (Muslim Cultures) "The Tradition of Female Genital Mutilation" is a completely normal thing to do. I'm just slowly getting sick and tired of all this separation between people that is created by these perceptions of "right" and "wrong". When is everyone going to wake up and see that we created all these illusions? Honestly, when? ...But hey… every one has a right to their own Belief System. BS… That's right, every one has there own "bullshit". So now, here I am writing this rant bitching about my past and my personal "BS" meanwhile the moment is passing and I've already written 306 words. So… to finish, I'd like to say this: To my "teachers" and all other people that criticized my writings and my creativity as a child, FUCK YOU!

Happy and Fulfilled,
Shane Lamotte

PS I'm sending you the therapy bill for all the cognitive reprocessing.

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